f.o.

When was the last time i feel really happy?
I cant remember, and I am tired of making myself happy.
I know better reasons not to feel this way, but I cant get out of it.
I will be numbed for a long long long time. Get used to it. Just work.

October would be a busy month. Entertaining people...
I didnt travel halfway round the fucking globe to have people find me. Whatever...
Just leave me alone. The next thing you know, I would be fucking non-contactable.
I am starting to hate phones and emails.