Good morning e

It is 3am on a Tueday morning. I have no idea why I have been waking up every 2 hours at night for the past week. Perhaps the electromagnetic field from my relocated CPU is toying with my nerves. What is eva thinking about at this moment?

Well these are the erratic thoughts jaywalking my brain right now:

eva asks herself:
What does art and science offer the world in common?

eva tells herself:
Art and science try to make the world a more intelligible place, despite there are more crucial problems in the world, because 24,000 ppl die of starvation everyday.... I guess we just have to find something to do while we are alive.

( chain reaction in thoughts- bombardment..oh shit)

Does the world ever learn though? no, because ppl are driven by selfish genes. Please read The Selfish Gene --
the gene-centric evolutionary theory by Richard Dawkins (1976).
Is eva succumbing to this cynisim? No, because you have to first acknowledge and then try to maybe perhaps attempt to try resolve a mandatory problem.

And with the world's big philosophical debate about rationalism and/or empiricism, the chicken and egg question about the marriage of mind and body. Guess what? we cannot even do simple math.

Lets see, when eva looks through bush's 2006 financial budget, under "Meeting the Nation's priorities -- Defending our Nation from attack by increasing funding for defense...", our dear mister allocated $120 million for the Middle East Partnership Initiative to support political and economic reform in the Middle East and North Africa....maybe he missed a couple of zeros when he look at his own country's national debt -- the gross federal debt has exceeded $8.3 TRillion. (See NYTimes magazine 11 June 06)

Zoom out a little ya? Less than 1% of what the world spent every year on weapons was needed to put every child into school by the year 2000 and yet it didn't happen.

And we have business grads and economists proving how fictitiously our economy is booming by somehow proving increasing GDPs, when the GDP of the poorest 48 nations (i.e. a quarter of the world’s countries) is less than the wealth of the world’s three richest people combined.
Does it matter if we are rational or empirical beings when we live in self-denial?


(awkward silence)


Lets talk about love.
What takes a woman to love a man, who committed numerous infidelities in their relationship, who deserted her for 3 years with 3 children without a word of concern; a man who married someone else within 4 months after he left her to pursure his ambitious career - which eventually led to 70 million deaths across china; a man who didnt even bother to save her life when he had all the convenience in the world to do so (yet claiming she was his love of his life); she stood in trial without a trace of fear in defense of his atrocities and got gunned to death at 29 only because she loves him...when she could have just denounced him , saved her own life and possibly prevented the world's worst famine costing 38millions of lives.

She is Kaihui, the second wife of Chairman Mao.

Is this the confucianism that is infused into her? That love can afford to be selfish despite the doom that u bring upon yourself and the world? I know Confucius is big on filial piety, taught through the relationship between a son and a father, but spousal relationship informs about family ties too...


(yawns)


eva is tired..good morning and good luck.